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On Top of zé Worrrld! :D

Sun Dec 20, 2009, 8:32 PM
So Let's talk about Friday, shall we?

Great day, Friday. Orchestra exam is just a survey, so we basically get to do whatever we want for two hours (except the sub that TRIED to write me up for being "disrespectful" on a day I was sick and couldn't go home was subbing... I think everyone agreed that she was awful... luckily I didn't have to talk with her, and luckily my hair isn't blonde anymore and luckily I had straightened it. Guess I was just lucky. lol XD So I don't think she recognized me)AND I got a 90% on my Science exam AND that dude I was talking about? No show! Well... I did see him, once... but I don't count that because I had just walked into the building... and you could see ANYBODY there. :shrug:

So that was nice. Then I went to FYE and bought Anna a nice birthday gift and went to her party later on. I had a great time there and I stayed up until about 2:30am just hanging out... of course... I think that might've been due to the severe intake of soda I had that night... and that crazy hat that I love so much (Ima have to get me one of those, lol)... Truth or dare is now officially THE most amazing game ever... that and 20 Truths... :heart: :heart: :heart: :love: loooovvve it!

So Saturday, right?

I woke up at Anna's house around 9:00am but didn't officially get offa' the couch (where I slept) until 9:30. I had pancakes and soda for breakfast (lol, really? yeah...^^; ) and then my mom came to get me at 10.

Then I had my hair/make-up appointment at the salon (apparently I have gorgeous hair and beautiful skin... who knew? :shrug: ). I was there until about 3... and WHILE I was there, I had myself three glasses of Mountain Dew :lmao: After that my mom took me to get some photos taken of me in my dress... the girl taking the photos... er yeah... she really had no idea what she was doing... it was like she kindasorta knew, but at the same time really didn't, so that was kind of frustrating. We didn't even get to review the photos because they were being too slow and had like three other people infront of us waiting, so we have to go look at those later (but she was like taking pictures of my necklace and the clip in my hair and my bracelet; why the hell do we need pictures of the jewelry? Seriously, we don't. Actually, they wasted a lot of time on that... er but that's beside the point...

Anyway! So then I went and had some food. Food... yum... lol. We went to my favorite restraunt, the House of Japan!!! W00t! But we HAD to get in right at 5 because we were REALLY short on time. so we stuffed our faces and left (and I got a birthday pineapple and my picture was taken again lol) (oh yeah, so after I had gotten outta the picture place, right? I had changed out of my dress... you know... so food doesn't get on it. But I uh... I didn't take my shoes or jewelry off lol... so I walked into the Japanese Steakhouse wearing my fabulous hair/make-up and sparkling jewelry and my silver dancing shoes... and pajamas XDDD I must've looked REALLY strange because even the guy sitting next to us at the table mentioned it to us and was like "wha--? O.o?" lol. It was pretty funny.)

So yeah. Then we had to hurry up and go get the balloons because we had failed to do that earlier. and we got back to our house to change at 6:30. Which was REALLY the time we were supposed to show up at the hotel where my party was being held. So my mom's freaking out and my brother didn't have stuff to wear and my sister was yelling at my mom... ugh... it was a major headache. So I'm in the kitchen trying to put my dress on by myself as my sister just stands there and watches instead of helping me... and we all know I'm a klutz, so I ended up hitting my shin on the oven (damn that oven! :shakefist: I have contracted a phobia of sorts over ovens due to THAT one. Do you know how many burns and bruises I get from that oven? Neither do I... quite obviously, too many. haha.)

Then I tell her to come lace up the back for me and she makes one of the ties in the back too long and my mom starts yelling and she's all like screaming a bunch of stuff that I didn't want to hear and I just wanted to start crying... but I somehow refrained myself from doing so... maybe it was because I really couldn't have cared less at that point. So as soon as I'm dressed (and in record time, I might add) I grabbed my coat and my camera and went and stood in my garage. I was just staring outside at the snow, asking myself how I intended to get my huge dress into the car. lol. and I really couldn't hold the camera and my dress at the same time. It was nice and quiet and I was just thinking about how much I liked watching the snow falling on the pavement, even if winter isn't my favorite season (for the record, I like the seasons in the order of Spring, Fall.. and Summer&Winter are equals, so... Sumter, I guess? lol). And I was thinking how I always wanted to build an igloo in my backyard when I was little (I still do, lol) and I never got to because there was never enough snow and when there was, no one wanted to go help me... but then my mom started screaming from the inside for the camera and I called back to her telling her that I had it. Then she came out, took my camera from me, and told me to go get in the car. So I gave her the camera and got in the car.

We left the house at 6:45 and had to hurry up and get to the hotel because the party started at 7... ahh!! So we made it to the hotel at 6:55... kinda lucky... but also not as there were some people who were already there. So I made sure the DJ knew what he was doing and I greeted my friends who were there before me and I went to check the cake and I greeted more people. There was a pretty good turnout and even though about half of the people I invited didn't show up a lot of my really close friends were able to make it. So that made me happy.

We had a really great time. We danced, I got teased, I got compliments, I injured my knee doing nothing (I don't even know how the hell I managed that), and I messed up cutting cake (also don't know how I managed that XD), I drank some Mountain Dew... :rofl: (this is getting ridiculous with the soda XD), everybody loved my cake, and at the very tail end I opened some presents. So I'm pleased with how it went. I think it was a total success and I had a great time, and I think my friends had a great time... and even if they didn't, they sure fooled me, lol.

Then I came home and I got out of that dress and I pulled on some pajamas and I just relaxed for a bit with a really nice book I got for my birthday... only made it to chapter three, though XDD but it was a very sweet and thoughful gift from one of my best friends and I'm glad he got it for me ^-^ (even if he did just come for the cake...:lol: jkjk)

So I went to bed at 12:19. O.O -insert creepy sound here-

SUNDAYSUNDAYSUNDAY:

Woke up at about 10 once more. We had to go meet with my Aunt for breakfast because she was only in town for my party and she had to get all the way back down to Tennessee because she has to work tomorrow.

My knee was still bothering me this morning and I was walking around with a limp through the mall this afternoon (my sister had a party to go to with one of her friends that was at my party last night and still needed to go get a gift for 'em). Other than that I didn't really do too much of anything. My mom told me I had to clean up the bathroom (ewwww... jk it wasn't that bad, lol) and that it had to be done by 6 because my brother was having a friend spend the night (a friend who was at my party last night). I got it done around 4. That was when my leg was feeling all right... or at least enough where I'd be able to make it down the stairs (ugh... stairs are the worst! and what's even worse than that is I sound like and old maid complaining about it! lol jk:))

But I had quesidillas for lunch and I took a nap around 6 after I went through all my gifts, sorted them, decided who got me what, wrote it all down, found homes for everything in my room, and counted up all the money I received (which is awesome because I can save it all up and then pool it together for something big later on... if I wanted to, lol :D). Then I woke up, grabbed me some leftover quesidillas, and came up here to write this journal... and I have soda with me!! :omfg: lol, is there really any surprise there?

So I think I had a pretty DAMN good weekend. I know I had a really amazing birthday and I know I have a lot of amazing friends and family members. and I made an amazing brithday wish (even though the likelihood of it actually coming true is far less than even that igloo-thing I mentioned earlier, lol XD). My leg still hurts, but I think it'll pass. Honest, I don't think there's anything I can really do about it because I have a feeling there's nothing severely wrong with it... but if it doesn't go away by the time school starts back up again... well, then maybe there's a problem with it, but since we're on Winter vacation now I think it'll have plenty of time to rest up.

Okay, now I'm gonna stay up all night watching Harry Potter movies for no reason except that I want to... with more SODA!!! haha!
~Megs♥

  • Mood: Happy
  • Listening to: Paparazzi - Lady Gaga
  • Reading: Lost Boy by Greg Laurie
  • Watching: All Night Potter-thon!!! lol XD
  • Drinking: SODA!!! :D

Thursdays officially SUCK...

Thu Dec 17, 2009, 7:41 AM
Well, I'm in a very badbadbadbadBAD mood today.

I woke up this morning with my sister being a complete asshole over something as stupid as a hairtie and a clippy that I just HAPPENED to be wearing all ready.

Why couldn't she just let it go? Her hair looked fine to her all the way up until the last two minutes before we were supposed to leave the house! So I chucked the clippy at her face and flung the hairtie at her and she started calling me mean names (which is like swearing in our house) and my brother was teasing me about my hair and face and watching me fight with my sister and my mom and aggitating me beyond belief and I wanted to strangle him it was so annoying.

And I was not happy to know that I was going to have to figure out something else to do with my hair... (which is always a bad thing when you're a girl because it takes too damn long to get it JUST right.) So I got pissed off at myself and started messing up my hair on purpose and I was pissed at myself for doing that and then I threw the hairbrush at my mom's feet (which I was lucky I didn't get in trouble for.. ^^; ) and then she was like "uh... yeah just go to school..."

So then I got mad at her for not caring and she threatend to cancel my party, so I stormed out the front door with my messy hair down and I looked like shit. I tried to fix it on the bus, but that only made it worse and the only hairtie I had with me didn't match my outfit (because it's always important that your outfit matches, I guess... usually I don't care, but EVERYTHING was pissing me off this morming, so why not just get mad at something silly like that? :shrug: )

Anyway, so I eventually went and just threw my hair into a quick ponytail with the bright yellow hairtie that just... STANDS OUT in brunette hair... ugh... pain in my ass...

Okay, so then I took my English exam and flew through it. (and then I saw a penny heads-up on the ground and I was going to pick it up, but I didn't... I'm starting to think I should have...) I hate my English class mainly because of the teacher, but the subject matter is WAY too easy for me. But then AFTER I was finished my teacher started passing out the grades. I was expecting a low A or a high B, but I was greeted with a C+ and I'm like "HOW THE FLYING FUCK DO I GET A C+ IN FUCKING ENGLISH??!" Of course I didn't say that out loud, but I know my brows were seriously furrowed as I glared at that little sheet of paper.

APPARENTLY, I suck at taking quizzes... because most of them were FUCKING ZEROES!!!! It's like, how the fuck do you get a fucking zero on a fucking quiz??! YOU CAN'T!!! So here I am, trying to figure out how the hell I ended up with a C+ in English class and I notice that some of the scores were left blank, some had lines slashed through them, and some were exempted. It was seriously chaotic. The problem is I have NEVER, and I repeat, NEVER gotten a zero on ANY of my English quizzes/tests.

So I decided... maybe it was a mistake? So I go and talk with her about it and she blamed the whole thing on me saying that if I was absent on any of those days I should have asked for the make-up work. And I was ready to beat the crap outta her. How dare she say that to me! I KNOW I have ALWAYS asked her for make-up work after I have been absent. sometimes she gave me stuff, but MOST times she said there wasn't anything for me to do or that whatever it was I didn't need to worry about it... and I TOLD her this as we were standing there! And she STILL maintained that it was all my fault! I'm like, "Okay, well, I'm gonna go home tonight and see if I can hunt down these things and if I bring them back after break you can still fill them in, right?" she said yes.

So now I gotta hunt down all this shit, but the thing is... they are tests and quizzes!! How the hell am I supposed to know if we had a pop quiz one day? UGH!!! This is my best subject and right now my GEOMETRY grade looks better!!! I HATE MY FUCKING BITCH ENGLISH TEACHER!!!!!! FUCKFUCKFUCKFUCKFUCK!!!!

So after I find all of these missing assignments, I'm going to confirm which days I was absent with the school's attendence offic, and THEN I'm going to call the guidence counselor about it so he'll be a thrid party and have the story from both ends. Plus, he might be able to do something about this. A teacher should not be entering zeroes for her students if they missed a quiz or need to make one up for some reason. Quizzes are just that-- QUIZZES! They are done in-class and are supervised by the teacher. If a student earns a zero, that's one thing... but if a student hasn't taken a quiz yet for whatever reason, it shouldn't count against their gradea a fucking zero!

*sigh* and THEN after all of this: I see the ONE 'EFFING PERSON I really just DID NOT want to see today. In fact I even walked a specific way as to AVOID THEM and it didn't work. Fuck my life and gag me with a spoon... so far this has been the WORST DAY EVER! As soon as I got home I came straight up into my room and just cried for about 20 minutes with my elephant and Momo. Now I'm gonna go get a shower, eat, take a nap, and study for my science exam tomorrow... which I'm also not looking forward to because said person will be there... fantastic.

Hope my bad mood isn't contagious to those of you who decided they wanted a look into the catastrophe that is me. Sorry 'bout that... I needed to vent... I kinda sorta feel better now... but maybe that's because I get the house to myself for a few hours and I can just hide away until then. Sounds like a good plan to me. Also, my buddy Anna's birthday is tomorrow! (at least her party is) We actually share a birthday on the 19th, but I'm turning 16, so I get the day. Plus she'll be at my party anyway, lol. Next year she'll get it since she's exactly one year younger than me :D Back-to-back parties are always fun, so maybe she'll help brighten my gloominess. lol.

~Megs♥

  • Mood: Outraged
  • Listening to: Poison - Groove Coverage
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuuden

LoL I got Tagged

Mon Nov 30, 2009, 11:49 PM
Finish the sentence...


I live: in my room.

I work: for no one.

I think: I am awesome! (because I AM. lol)

I smell: probably like vanilla or coconut or green apples... on a good day. lol.

I listen: to everything (except maybe my teachers... XD)

I hide: when I get scared :P

I walk: Psh, screw walking! Dance! :dance:

I write: stories if I have time.

I see: people for who they really are.

I sing: loudly, lol.

I can: draw?

I watch: whatever catches my attention at a particular moment.

I daydream: all the time.

I fall: hard.

I want: to make up my mind.

I cry: when I'm upset or frustrated.

I read: YOUR MIND!!! :O (lol just kidding ;P)

I love: all my friends! :)

I rode: a horse bareback! fun!

I sometimes: get lost in my thoughts.

I fear: being alone forever

I hope: I don't seem as cowardly or timid as I really am ^^;

I eat: very little.

I drink: SODA!!!!!

I play: the viola... poorly. lol.

I miss: my grandma's chili :(

I forgive: too easily.

I drive: people crazy! lol.

I lost: someone I cared about.

I dream: about weird things that I can't distinguish. XD

I kiss: ...I don't... I guess. Considering I've never been kissed. :/

I hug: anyone who wants a hug. :)

I have: amazing friends

I remember: things I shouldn't.

I don't: ignore or avoid people, even if I have reason to.

I believe: in Santa Claus... and all those other mythical people.

I owe: someone my eternal gratitude.

I know: I'm difficult to understand... that's all right, though ^-^

I hate: that one person in the theatre who just won't SHUTUP! lol.

I wish: for things that don't come true... how sad.

My ex: ... I don't think I really have one... since I never "dated" anyone.

Maybe I should: talk with him...

People would say that I'm: strange... creative... funny

I don't understand: myself.

Life if full of: shit. Deal with it.

My past is: not something I wanna discuss.

I get annoyed when: people don't hear me say something.

Parties are: stressful.

Tomorrow: I'm gonna have a lot of homework to do... -_-'

Never in my life have I: been kissed by a dude outside my family.

When I was younger, I: used to dance around outside during thunderstorms (good times lol)

When I'm nervous: I don't make eye contact and I start talking about random shit... sometimes I even repat things I've all ready said lol XD

When I was 5: my world was a better place.

My life is not complete without: sharing my smile with others :)

If you visit my hometown: ...not really sure if I even have a hometown... lol XD

I once dreamt that: I was part of the Anti-Kira Task Force in Death Note and Aizawa was eating a book and I asked him, "Aizawa, why are you eating a book?" and he said "because I like eating books... I eat all kinds of books, really." Then Matsuda comes over and he says, "I STRICTLY eat FANTASY books!" lol, like wtf? For real XD

The world could do without: Robert Pattinson :vomit:

If I ever go back to school: ...well I will, tomorrow, lol.

And, by the way: I looooooooooovvveeeeee anime and manga!!! :heart:

SHUFFLE TIME!

Opening Credits: Here Without You Baby - Nickleback

Your mom finds out she's pregnant with you: Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Green Day (surprisingly this fits... kinda depressing, though)

While she's delivering you: Paparazzi - Lady Gaga (wtf? lol XD)

Your first birthday: Savin' Me - Nickleback

You growing up: On the Wing - Owl City

Your first day of school: Comatose - Skillet

Meeting your first friend: If You Could Only See - Jack Benny (that's a little deep, lol. I love this song so much. :heart:)

Your first day of middle school: Something in your Mouth - Nickleback (oh geez...)

Meeting your first crush: Fireflies - Owl City (cuuuuttte!! but completely untrue. lol.)

Your first kiss: Don't Trust Me - 3OH!3 (greeaaatt... >.<;)

Fighting with your parents: Never Gonna Be Alone - Nickleback (every other song is by nickleback. that's kinda funny XD)

Fighting with your friends: Starstrukk - 3OH!3 feat. Katy Perry

Breaking up: Just to get High - Nickleback

Your first day of high school: Just Dance - Lady Gaga (lol)

Your sweet sixteen: Womanizer - Britney Spears

Your 18th birthday: Burn to the Ground - Nickleback

Your graduation ceremony: Circus - Britney Spears

Your first day of college: Photograph - Nickleback

Your first college party: Simple and Clean - Utada Hikaru

Meeting your true love: I Love You - Utada Hikaru (oh how fitting XD)

Getting married: Someday - Nickleback (o.O?)

First time you had sex: Animals - Nickleback (ROFL!)

Finding out you/your spouse is pregnant: The Technicolor Phase - Owl City

Having your first child: Phenomenon - Thousand Foot Krutch

Getting old: Just For - Nickleback

Your spouse gets sick: Who's that Girl - Hilary Duff

They die: If Today Was Your Last Day - Nickleback (slightly ironic)

At their funeral: She Wolf - Shakira

You end up in the hospital: American Idiot - Green Day (yeah well... I have no words for this XD)

Your death: Into the Night - Nickleback

Your funeral: Beautiful World - Utada Hikaru (WTF? why would they be playing this at my funeral?!? O.o?)


People's Themes...

Yours: Pokerface - Lady Gaga (haha that's funny)

Your best friend: Rainbow Veins - Owl City (I can see that)

Your first crush: Kingdom - Utada Hikaru (interesting)

Your mom: Thinking of You - Katy Perry (O.o?? I don't think so lol)

Your dad: Gotta Be - Nickleback (nope! lol XD)

Your sibling(s): Why - Utada Hikaru (haha for DDR maybe lol)

Your worst enemy: Sakura Drops - Utada Hikaru (this is jacked up lol)

Your signifigant other: Love Game - Lady Gaga (O.O ... no comment XD)

Your first child: Can You Keep a Secret - Utada Hikaru (fantastic... -_-';)

Your first grandchild: Collide - Skillet (I can deal with that)


What You Listen To When...

You're happy: She's a Rebel - Green Day

You're upset: Time Of Your Life - Green Day

You're angry: I'll Meet You There - Owl City

You're depressed: Augen Auf! - Oomph (I love this song, even though it doesn't fit with this particular category :D)

You're cleaning: Boulevard of Broken Dreams - Utada Hikaru

You're working out: Swan Song - Within Temptation (I had to switch playlists... lol I ran outta songs XD)

You're bored: The Truth Beneath The Rose - Within Temptation

You're doing homework: Amaranth - Nightwish

You're eating: Hills of Myst - Within Temptation

You're thinking: Cadence of Her Last Breath - Nightwish

You're going to sleep: Moondance - Nightwish

You're feeling sick: Meadows of Heaven - Nightwish

You're going shopping: Slaying the Dreamer - Nightwish

You're hanging out with your friends: Last of the Wilds - Nightwish (lol. Interesting.) (D: a lot of my favorite songs have been taken off of this playlist... sad... I'm too lazy to fix it right now... but now I gotta go to my last playlist... and all the songs are pretty much by the same artist XD)

You're on a date: My Will (English) - InuYasha OST

You're having sex: Moshi Mo - InuYasha OST

You're at a party: Fukai Miori - InuYasha OST (not very party-like :P)

You're driving: My Will Japanese Remix - InuYasha OST

You're on a plane: Owarinai Yume - InuYasha OST

You're relaxing: Yura Yura - InuYasha OST

You're on vacation: Every Heart (Japanese) - BoA

Your friends think your theme is: Grip! - InuYasha OST

Your family thinks your theme is: Affections Touching Across Time - InuYasha Movie 2 Sound Track

Your signifigant other thinks your theme is: Shinjitsu no Shi - InuYasha OST

What reminds your enemy of you: Every Heart (English) - BoA

What song makes you sad: Soutanshi - Kaoru Wada

Makes you happy: Dearest - InuYasha OST

Makes you mad: InuYasha Season 2 OP - InuYasha OST

Gives you energy: Come - InuYasha OST

Makes you tired: Destiny - InuYasha OST

You love to hate: Kagome and Kikyou's Theme - InuYasha OST (really I don't hate this song... but.... I do hate both the characters lol)

You hate to love: Ai no Uta - InuYasha OST (I really do love this song ^-^)

Makes you think: Change the World - InuYahsa OST

Makes you wonder: Angelus - InuYasha OST

What song inspires you: Flowers - Terra (breaking out my last playlist here... lol)

Motivates you: Morning Glory - Naoki

Makes you feel invincible: Shining Star - BeForU

Even More Random...

When you trip: Fun House - P!nk

When you fall: Eye of the Tiger - Survivor

When you're trying to look cool: Thriller - Micheal Jackson

When you have no idea what's going on: I'm Blue(Dabadee Dabadie) - Eiffel 65

When you can't figure something out: The Hell Song - Sum41

When you're dancing around the house cuz you're home alone: What is Love - Haddaway

What you sing in the shower: Never Alone - Barlow Girl

When you're getting dressed: Perfect World - Simple Plan

When you're talking on the phone: You Spin Me 'Round (Like A Record) - Dead or Alive

When you're sneaking out: Goodbye - Sum 41 (kinda fits... a little)

When you get caught sneaking back in: Smooth Criminal - Alien Ant Farm

When you think about life: Danger Zone - Kenny Loggins

What actually sums up your life: Who I am Hates Who I've Been - Reilent K

How people will remember you: Intuition - Jewel (lol great XP)

How you want people to remember you: Pokémon Theme Song - Pokémon OST (lmfao XDDDD)

The best song out there: Tainted Love - Soft Cell

The worst song out there: Crazy Train - Ozzy Osbourne (I care to disagree)

Worst song by the best artist: Cold-hearted Snake - Paula Abdul (Nah... both song and artist are just "okay")

Best song by the worst artist: See You Again - Miley Cyrus (so true, though XD)

Ending Credits: Shadow of the Day - Linkin Park

*Whoever reads this, are automatically TAGGED and therefore must complete this.<b/>

  • Mood: Relief
  • Reading: Tramps Like Us vol. 10
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuuden

Greeeaaattt... :/

Journal Entry: Fri Nov 27, 2009, 5:06 PM


So we had left over Thanksgiving dinner tonight.... or in my case bread and butter (for real, I'm not joking I had three rolls and butter for dinner and a piece of pumpkin cheesecake for dessert)

And my Step mom turns to my dad and goes "do you wanna tell them?"

So I throw my butter knife down on my plate. Because frankly... this is ridiculous, I knew exactly what they were going to say before they even said it. But before I had the chance to state my mind, my brother beat me to the punch.

"I know! I already know what you guys are gonna saaay!! Julie's gonna have a baby, right?"

And Julie's all like "Dude... really? How did you know?"

"You mean I was right??" Epic fail right there.

Anyway, soo... yeah... I guess I'm going to be a big sister... again... for the eleventyith time. -_-'

This actually really sucks ass. I can barely stand my one baby sister... (and don't get me wrong, I love kids... but she's just a ligitimate BRAT)I can't even imagine having ANOTHER ONE on top of that! We can't afford this type of shit right now as my family is kind of hurting financially... which isn't to say we're the only family... but merely we are one of the MANY families thta can't afford stuff like BABY FOOD (have you ever checked the prices on that stuff? It's outrageous!).

This is my dad's fifth kid now. Yeah... that's a lot of kids for a guy with no job :/

And I gotta live with this shit for another two and a half years. AAUUGGGHH Fuck my life and gag me with a spoon. Well... that's all I gotta say for now... I'll probably post some pictures this weekend. So look forward to that! :D (I make it a point to post at least one good thing lol XD)

Thanks for your time and I'll continue to post updates every now and then!

~Megs♥


  • Mood: Disbelief
  • Listening to: Hyper Eurobeat by Naoki (DDR)
  • Reading: Tramps Like Us vol. 10
  • Watching: Naruto Shippuuden
  • Playing: DDR
  • Eating: Pumpkin Cheesecake (Yummeh! ^-^)
  • Drinking: Coca-Cola

He's in My Nightmares...

Journal Entry: Thu Nov 26, 2009, 2:04 PM


Okay, so lately I've been having dreams that are more like nightmares... It scares me enough to keep me from thinking straight... so I'm only going to share a few with you guys because the others are too freaky to even mention.

:bulletgreen:Nightmare #1:

So it's like nighttime outside, no moon. Smoke is filling the sky and I can see the tall smoke stacks of those fiery incinerator things. I'm riding on a train car huddled up closely with a shit load of other people. when we get off I'm standing there with a girl from my Color Guard, Christi. We're herded off to the right with all the other women and children. Nobody knows what's going on, but I have this feeling that something bad is about to happen. Suddenly, this gas is relased into the placed we've all been sent to. People start falling over left and right. And it only takes me a moment to realize they're dead.

Screams are filling the air and I'm telling Christi to start moving the dead bodies to form a pile. So Christi and I are holding our breath and piling up people. Once we have a pile about up to her waist I grab her and we army crawl our way underneath the pile. We're there for sometime... probably 10 or 15 minutes, holding our breath for as long as we possibly can before taking a breath of air. The idea of the bodies was ideally to build a shield against the toxic gases. Some Nazis come in asking if anyone is still alive (they ask in German).

Christi and I come out from under the pile of dead bodies. We see that a young six year old girl and three other women have as well survived. SO they put us on the back of a cart. We're being taken to some sort of examination where they decide if we're "worth keeping" I guess. So I make it to the examination and they send me down the road toward the incinerator and then suddenly tell me to head down a different path. I start heading toward what looked like a small campfire with very few people. I learned that Christi had been sent here as well as the other women... the only face I didn't see was the child's.

I was greeted by a friendly Nazi here. He had a very wire-like and coarse black beard. He wanted to know exactly how we got here, so I told him. The other women had apparently heard me and copied my tactic. Well, this dude was impressed, and he seemed very genuine when he asked us questions about our families and such. He start revealing all of Hitler's schemes and plans to us and he told us about some other important stuff, like what was going to happen to us. He said that right now we were in what he called "limbo" where they were STILL deciding whether we were worth keeping around for hard work or if they should just kill us regardless.

I don't know how or why it happened, but I was going to try and spy on Hitler. Our nice Nazi allowed me to do whatever I wanted, so it wasn't a problem. All he said was, "don't let him see you."

So I snuck my way around the camp and when I found his mansion, I scaled up the side of it to an open window. Hitler was inside looking at himself in a mirror. He seemed like he was getting prepared to give a speech or something. I climbed into the room silently, and I grabbed something... I can't remember what it was, but I know it was important. (it was like a ring or something... I think) So I snuck back out the window just before Hitler turns around. I slide down his rooftop and I leap from the side of the building.

I roll on my back when I hit the ground so I don't hurt myself as much. I end up running back to the others and when I return the child is there and I feel relived. What I didn't know at the time was Hitler had seen dirty footprints on his white carpeting and glanced out the window just as I was leaving... so he saw me.

When I woke up the following morning the black bearded guy is telling us that his commanding officer has moved the judgment day for us abruptly to this day and we're freaking out. So he loads us into another cart and he says he hopes that we all make it through. When we get to wherever it is we're supposed to be, I see that a large block of men in dirty clothing are on my right. I see someone I know... someone I really care about and I jumped from the cart and ran toward them. I hugged them tightly and the surprise was mutual. He kept telling me to get out ofthere while I still had the chance. Then Hitler part the crowd and Christi could be heard screaming from the cart as it continued to move away.

Hitler started making his way toward us and he said something to us... something bad... I can't remember what it was but it had the implication that he was going to kill me right then and there and I remember his shadow looming over me and my heart racing fast knowing I was about to be killed and then I woke up as several bullets were fired at me and the guy I was with.

I don't know if my words even BEGIN to describe the sheer TERROR I felt throughout the whole dream. Like I was running for my life and I had to be more clever the my attackers and I had to think of something smart to stay alive... to out-wit them. It frightend me... it still does... it all seemed far too real to be a dream.

:bulletgreen:Nightmare #2:

I wasn't feeling well on Tuesday so I went to lay down in my English class in the back of the room during this 2 hour long 3rd period that we had. But the kids in my class were making fun of me and being very inconsiderate and they were poking me and pushing me... and I wanted to break down and cry or get up and yell at them and punch someone in the face for how rude they were being.

So I went to my teacher and she was like, "Are you wanting to leave the classroom? Because I don't want you leaving and I don't care how you feel, you'll just have to deal with it."

So I glared at her (because I hate her) and I said, "I. Do. Not. Feel. Well. All I want to do is go to the Nurse's office. Please sign my hallpass so I don't puke in your classroom."

Now, honestly my stomach wasn't bothering me, but I knew that was the only way she'd ever let me out of the classroom. and I was right, she signed my hallpass and told me to get out of her classroom before I made anyone else sick. I rolled my eyes as I left.

The nurse let me lay down in her office for a little bit and I fell asleep. That's where I had this dream.

Everything in this dream was tinted red (like lighting-wise). SO I'm running down a street. Buildings are burning and crumbling and falling down as I pass and behind me a raging inferno is chasing me. So I turn down a brick alley that apparently dead ends. Great. So I turn around to face my doom and I take a step back in fear and I fall. I'm falling down what seems to be a bottomless black pit of nothingness and then I finally hit the ground... hard.

As I look around a bright white spotlight appears, but its not on me... its on someone else. On top of a large stack of human bones is the same guy from that other dream. Except here, he's dead and he's bleeding ALOT. I remember that I was completely devastated and horrified... truely it was gruesome. Then I began falling again... liek I was being dragged farther and farther away from the terrible scene against my will and then the next thing I knew the nurse was shaking me telling me that everything was all right and it was just a bad dream.

Apparently I had started screaming in my sleep and crying. She asked me if I was all right and if I knew where I was and stuff like that... she told me she wanted to see me later so I could talk with her about it... so I did. It was a VERY scary dream. I don't think anyone can even imagine how scary it was to me.

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Anyway. I had to let it out or else I think I would scare myself to death. I'm not used to these kinds of dreams... if anyone has any opinion on them, then I appreciate that. I don't know if anyone can help me, but one of my friends has suggested I go see a shrink all ready :P like that's gonna happen... maybe when hell freezes over. lol.

Anyway, you probably didn't want to read any of that, but thank you if you did. I guess I'll post again some other time... maybe I'll post some drawings? ;)

~Megs♥

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